Life

We’re getting closer and closer to the end of our freshman semester. I can officially say I am a sophomore in college. That means in just 3 more school years and then we would become seniors and be walking across the stage receiving our diplomas. It is truly crazy how fast our education has been even though we have been attending school our whole life if feels like yesterday I was holding my mom's hand while she walks me to my kindergarten class. And in just a few more years I will have to start looking for a job and moving out of my mom’s house and find an apartment. It is so crazy to me and I feel like I need to learn so much more that I know I am not going to learn in college. Like how do I pay my taxes and how do I find the best house for me, and how should I be able to manage my money with paying bills and stuff. This road trip to adulthood is crazy but crazy good in a way I can not wait to get out in the world and make my mark. It is also kind of scary because you do not know if you are going to make to where you wanna be. You could always fall short and be disappointed with yourself. That is why I feel like everything we do know counts towards something in the future.If you slack off now your chances of being something big will be quite small.

Ending School Year

Todays blog is going to be about the school year ending. It has been a long school year but has also be short in a way. I was not expecting my first year of college to be the way that it is. I was expecting it to be just like high school. Just to get through the year and pass all my class. I am currently doing that now but it feels different. When I started high school I was so focused on trying to get a 4.00 and make friends that would be my friends forever. Not all of that didn't happen. So starting the college year I had a real outlook on how it was going to happen. I was going to pass all my classes well at least try and make a couple of friends I did not expect much from this school because of my lack of interest for the school. But I have found to be satisfied with the school, only because if the amazing scenery the school has. But I think for me to get the most out of my education I need to attend a school that really interest me and thrives me to do the best of my ability. That is why I am going to look into transferring but next year I am going to have to put in work and bring up my gpa so I can get into great schools. Especially a school that has the particular major interest.

Ducks and Gesse

Recently I have been taking it upon myself to explore this campus. While going to class I always pass the lake by the dorms and occasionally the lake by the basketball gym. But I never with to the other small little ponds and lakes, until last week. When I walk pass the lakes I am never standing there and taking it in, I am normally rushing to class or to get some food. But last week I took it upon myself to take a seat and take it all in. I feel like I have learned so much because when I see the ducks or the geese doing something weird I look it up on my phone and try to find it out. I actually learned what kind of ducks and geese we have on campus. We have so many different types by the way. There are so many other animals too. I have seen frogs, turtles, fishes, tadpoles, and a crane I think. And there's probably more that I haven't discovered yet. The ponds and lakes that the school has are amazing and I really recommend you to take a minute out of your day and sit and watch the baby ducks and geese. They are so cute and will definitely have you taking out your phone 24/7 because of the silly these they're always doing. I think my favorite lake will have the be the one by the music building because there are so many different spots to sit and there are so many different types of ducks and geese.

Standing Up For Myself

Today I learned a very valuable lesson that will definitely help me out further in the future. If something does not feel right then say something. I am normally the type of person that just goes with the flow if something happens, I will tend to just allow it to happen. That is not the best way to go with life. Being walked over and allow people to control how I feel and what I do is not the way to live. For example over the weekend after the track meet my teammates and I went to Chickfila and one of my teammate cut in front of me. I did no think much of until my other teammate stood up for me and told me to go in front of him and order. At that moment I was obviously embarrassed because all my teammate were there staring at me and probably thinking I was weak and submissive. It was the worst feeling ever, walking to the register with all eyes following me. Now today I stood up for myself and spoke my mind. It made me feel so much better about myself and after I told my mom and she was also proud.This could also benefit me in the future when I demand for a raise or if someone is pushing me around and I need to stand my ground and stick up for myself. This also connects to my academics because it would motivate me to speak up in group discussions because my opinion matters and people should hear it.

Different Schools

This past weekend I visited two different schools located in Los Angeles. While visiting these school it made me think about Stan State and how they compared. The tracks were totally different, at Cal State LA the track was trash compared to our track but Long Beach college had a nicer track. All I could think about is what if? What if I tried harder in my academics during high school and what if I pushed my self harder in track during high school and over the summer. I could have been running at a big school like the schools that attended the track meet held at Long Beach College. Schools like Louisiana State University, San Diego State University, or even that big college in Hawaii. How would it change my life if I went to a bigger school? Before I thought I could have a better experience at a bigger school however now I think Stan State was the best choice for right now. Because the bigger colleges tuition compared to Stanislaus is so much more money which I doubt I could afford without taking out some loans. While I was talking to my friend while we had a free day between the track meets talked about Stan and our experiences and how we felt about the school. I did not really want to go to this school and I doubt i'm going to stay here all four years, but If I do it would be because it's semi-cheap tuition. But I don't feel like it fits my social needs, however it helps with furthering my education.

Work Work Work

There is so much going on it has been getting kind of hard to keep up with the blogs. With track and test back to back I have been so busy. Last week I had a econ test and had to study the whole week because the last time I took a test in econ I did not do so well. So all week I was studying and did not stop. The only time I was not studying was either when I was at practice, class or sleep. So I did not really pay attention to any other classes. Now this week I have a test in Business Law and I had to study for that. To be honest I need a little breather so I can organize everything and make sure that I do everything like my bogs and make comments on other people's blogs. It is crazy because I set reminders on my phone about it but I get to busy and forget that I have to do it until the next day. Also this week is kind of heck it because I have to leave in the middle of the week for a track meet in LA. I am lucky that I do not have any test that are this week after Wednesday. Because if I did I would have been even more stressed out. After this semester end I want to change things. High school and college are not the same. I thought I was going to be able to act and do the same things I did in highschool but I was wrong. I have to grow up and get my stuff together.

The School Year Is Ending!!

It is rolling down to the end of the school year and everything is coming all at me at once. There is so much to do for this year and to get ready for the next semester. Try to pass classes so you don't have to do it over the summer or again next semester. It is kind of getting stressful but I am pushing myself. This school year has taught me a lot about my mental stamina and how I should arrange my classes so I can make sure I have enough time to study and attend social gathering that could help me in the future. For example right now I have about 3 night classes that occur throughout the week. So during these times there are events such as career night where business show up and look for students to hire and or to help them out with interview and other things like that. Also there are mock interviews that occur in the evening sometimes and I can not attend because I am stuck in class. So for next year I am going to put most of my classes in the morning and only resort to night classes if I have to. I also can not have night classes because I am going to be moving off campus and walking back home at night will not be safe so morning classes are a must. I want to make sure all my next 3 years after this one is successful and it is all about planning and it has to start now.

Relax Weekend

This weekend I tooked it a tab it easy. I didn't go to the track meet last weekend and it was for the best. At first I was upset when I was informed that I wasn't going to be able to run but I soon realized that I can get a rest and catch up with work and my life. I was able to finish my art assignment and work on my scholarships. I think we all need a little break that being a whole day or even a weekend. This break helped out my student life because I did not have to rush to do all my work. I knew that I had time to do my work and wash and sleep. This break was rare but I actually was able to experience how it was not being a student athlete. There's so much time to do everything, sometimes I really think about how much time I don't get off  because I'm a student athlete. For example spring break. I’m use to a whole week off for spring break when I was in high school. But this year I only get Monday and Tuesday off. That is so crazy to me. I only really get Sunday, Monday and Tuesday off and I have so much to do when I get to go back home. I have to work on my block for track at my old high school and work on an Art assignment and make a video. So I dont really have a break it's going to really feel like school.

First Home Meeet

This past weekend the school hosted their first home track meet for the season. Of course this was an exciting experience, it was nothing compared to my high school home meets. The stadium is much bigger and there was a lot more schools participating than high school. Many of my friends and people on my floor attended the meet. I loved how much they supported the team and me. Since it was the first home meet we had to show everyone what we were made of, sadly it didn’t all go as plan. The girls 4 by 100 relay, which I am on didn't really represent Stanislaus as Stanislaus should be represented. We were late to the line and had to rush to our positions. We all thought the race was going to start at 11:30 but the meet was running a tab bit faster than expected. So everyone was rushing to their spots and we forgot the most important thing…. the tape.The tape is for the person to know when to start running so nobody runs into each other, just incase you didn't know. So the girls on my team had to ask another school for some tape, how embarrassing it that? Our coach was even mad at us, he asked us, “ How are we going to host a take meet and look like visitors.” That really stuck with me throughout the day and especially when it was time for me to run my last race…. the 200m. While I ran this race I just thought of everything coach told us and remembered all the people I know that is watching me right now, I can't look like a visitor. And I did not I took first in my heat and had a personal record for the season.

Track vs School

Todays blog is going to be about my student life experience at my first track meet. I feel as if I didn't join the track team I wouldn't have this opportunity to connect with more people. Track is just like a club to me. A club that meets everyday and works together for two to three hours. Even though I enough running track it has started to affect my social life at stan state. In order to attend practice every day. I had to change my schedule to make sure that I have enough time to take care of my study hall hours and attend practice and still have time to hangout with my friends or attend social school gathering such as the basketball game during homecoming. If you recall from my last blog my goal was to attend any events that were going on during the week. Sadly I wasn't able to achieve that goal because of track. Track is somewhat a blessing and a curse. This week we have another track meet coming up and it's going to be at that school. So this time I hope to see people from the school attend and make it kind of feel like the homecoming basketball game. I know it probably won't have the same outcome as them since it's on a Saturday but I still want to feel the same vibe. I think having a home track meet would make me enjoy my student life here at Stan State because I would be surrendered by people I see everyday and they get to come and support their school.

Homecoming

This weeks topic is going to be about the upcoming homecoming week here at Stanislaus State. It’s already seems totally different from my high school's homecoming. Even though the week just started I already don’t feel welcomed to participate. Compared to my highschool when we have a homecoming football game there’s always spirt week leading into the big game on Friday. It was much easier to participate cause all you really had to do is dress up in whatever the theme of the day was. That being either jersey day or black and white day. But i feel like when I started attending college I ran into people that didn’t really care about the social events that occur at school. I meet some people while attending a business dinner through Stanislaus. They were mostly juniors and seniors and they all confessed that they’ve never went to the quad on wednesdays to enjoys the activities clubs and other groups of people do. One of them actually said they try to avoid the quad and that was so crazy to me. I really think Stanislaus has these types of events to attempt to let college students to have a little access to fun in between their classes. So this week I’m going to attempt to attend the homecoming events if i'm not busy but to be honest I really doubt I could because of the time they have it. Just like the wednesday event it was always when I have class. But I will definitely attend the basketball game, I think that will really show how many people have school spirit and will encourage people that lack it gain some.

Parties?

Today's blog is going to be about my experience at a past party that I attended. And yes this does relate to my school experience here at Stanislaus State. While attending this party I was able to make multiple connections with people that also attends the college. The difference from any regular school day was that it felt much easier to socialize with strangers at a party rather than in a classroom. I think that my lack of motivation to attend classes causes me to build up a wall and enclose myself into my own little word. People I would never see myself having more than a hello exchange with was proven wrong when I attended the party. It might have been that way because they were under the influence but still it made me feel good inside. Since I'm such a shy person, attending the party made me a little bit more optimistic on make more friends and expanding my usually circle. My circle currently consist of people on my track team only cause im always with them 24/7 and even though they’re cool people I need to be more outgoing. With the help of Stan State's activities I have more opportunities to reach out and network with other people that could help me out in the future. Hopefully I actually get to attend the activities they have and probably the reset of my blog post would be about them and how I felt about them. I would also talk about how it effects my experience at Stanislaus State.